It seems like every time I get into weight lose mode my brain starts jumping into the future... I don't know if it is because I've reached my goal before or if it is my personal way of not accepting who I am right now but i keep having the same though process:
It's great that you've lost nine pounds (or 3 pounds or 5 pounds or whatever) but when you get back down below 131, then you can actually feel like you're making process. Or when you finally hit 120 you can finally feel proud. 110 you'll finally look not fat... It's so arbitrary and so not productive because there is really nothing I can do to get to that place right away, right now I just got down below 40 right now my victory pants are stll my fat pants, and when my brain is on this mode of only when its so easy to fall into three trap of feeling powerless and paralyzed in a state of "not yet"... I want to feel confident and proud about where I am yet still I have all these disclaimers...
Maybe my title should be if not now, when... Because I'm pretty sure ill junior the same mental block at 130 and 110 and whatever may come inbetween... For better or worse no matter what I way i'rf still be me, and that has to be, enough..right .now...right?
I do the same damn thing. I wish I had some advice, but right now I just need to get back under 140. I figure if I can hit 135 this time, maybe I can maintain under 140, and eventually get to 130 - my pre-pregnancy weight, but my goodness who knows.
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